Catch Up

So I admit I suck at blogging, there it is, out in the open. I am hoping that this post will help all of my 5 followers to realize I am not dead. In fact I am very much alive. Man where to begin.. A LOT has happened since August when I wrote last. Most of the major stuff you all know so I am only going to touch on a couple things but I am going to give details. We will go chronologically, first my brother got engaged :) I am going to be honest when I tell you that I was excited but at the same time I was a little sad. It was the start of the end of our single siblings era. That was a hard thing to let go of, I knew things would change and I was having a hard time embracing that. Luckily for me David picked a girl that exceeded all of my expectations. She is the only sister that I get by choice, and I wouldn't want anyone else. I realized that if I still wanted that same relationship with my brother I was going to have to go out of my way to work for it. But having a relationship with both David and Diane is worth the extra effort. I have found my heart has loved her as much as a blood sister. I know there is a lot more time for our relationship to grow and I look forward to it.

Second major thing was my decision to serve a mission. Yes this may come as a shock to you, because it certainly shocked me :)! As you know the age for mission service has been changed and girls can now serve starting at 19. This is a huge change and it has caused a huge surge of girls my age leaving. When the announcement came out I was dating someone and I brushed it off because I didn't ever think that a mission was for me, but it kept nagging at me and it was constantly on my mind. I started praying for direction because my head kept telling me the opposite of what my heart was telling me, but I knew that the Lord would answer my prayer and I needed to be ok with whatever he had to tell me. So as I was driving to work one day the song "Come Thou Fount" came on. As a listened to the words of that song the line "Prone to wander Lord I feel it, prone to leave the God I love" stuck with me. I could not get that phrase out of my head and it was frustrating because I couldn't figure out what it was supposed to mean. I thought about it for the rest of the week. The following Sunday I was visiting my home ward and they were doing a special musical sacrament meeting where the speaker would talk about their favorite Hymn and then we would sing it. Music has always had such a powerful effect on me and I strongly believe that it is one of the strongest connections between me and my Father in Heaven. So as I was sitting in that chapel listening to the songs we were singing, it hit me. I hadn't been focusing on the whole phrase from "Come Thou Fount" I had gotten stuck on a little part of it. The remainder of the phrase fled through my mind, "Here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it, seal it for Thy courts above." and at that moment I knew what I needed to do. I knew that my heart needed to be in it. I knew that I needed to stop focusing on the little parts and start looking at the whole picture. I was holding myself back by not seeing the whole plan. Yes my life would change drastically, yes I would have to sacrifice a lot, but I knew the blessings would outweigh any of the sacrifices I would have to make. I know that a year and a half is nothing compared to what He did for me. I know it isn't going to be easy, in fact it is going to be really hard, but I also have a sure knowledge that He would not ask me to do anything that I couldn't do. I am ready to take on this task! :)


So I know that this isn't the funny, strange, and crazy post that I normally do, but I needed some place to write that story. So if you skimmed over it I don't mind, haha I do the same thing all the time. I promise to get better about blogging and maybe my Mom can take over the bloggity blog blog once I leave so that ya'll can still hear from me! I know you all want to. So there it is.. the update on my life :) thanks to all 5 of my followers for following me! Maybe when I become famous I will give you a shout out.